artsy fartsy

i feel so artsy fartsy. not just fartsy.

nag-model ako for a painting..
and there is more to that, but i would not mention it. haha

i have an upcomming play this week..

i finished shooting this no-budget film as she would call it. editting na lang!

we just came up with a new movie, and time for scripting/storybarding whatever..
pero di pa alam kelan.

i officially have a band (HAHAHA, kahit na olats ako, feeling, at trying hard ako, at nakakainggit sila, at di nila ako kelangan) we had our first jamming last saturday. we call ourselves S N D. you'll have to ask me what it means. its the only contribution i made. hehe

"belt out your frustrations on..."

on LIVING
not about L I F E
Im not where to stay.. damnit. i hate commuting for HOURS, but i'm starting to hate being a loner.


on WAITING
Id rather place myself on making mistakes and getting shouted at rather than waiting for 3milyon years doing nothing.
and no, its not about L O V E


on LOVE
"my world is spinning round, inside my head tonight.
i have fall into the darkness, and i feel i would never see the light"
and no, its not about H E R! (F I F I)
id think about love and wait for a while (how ironic)...
but theres no more time
id rather be sure
why dont you become a MAN, and take risks
id rather hurt my self than hurt someone dear.
if realizations come too late, well, thats the RISK i have to take.

crazy

voices in my head tell me to do this.
to do that
which voice to follow, i do not know.
they all sound the same.

when they all speak so loud,
speak at the same time
i cannot hear my voice anymore.
i even feel that one of them is my own..

but none of them is real.. all IS fictious.

so i sit and wait, and wait and wait
hoping that someday, i would be cured from this insanity

-

* on having insomia.

you

you are the apple of my pie
you are the ice of my tea
you are the hot of my dog

you are the cake of my cup
you are the root of my beer
you are the sun of my set

---

oh shit,
im such a very good pwet.

gray petals

she loves me, she loves me not.
i will never know until i reach the end
.. or the beginning.

she loves me, she loves me not.
prediction killed the flower
.. and nothing else happened.

so dont be stupid
.. there could be gray flowers
.. do they look dull?

THE END

BBQ-popcorn flavored pants

nanuod ako oceans 12 today! :) kasama ko si cool girl with shades at si jace with no shades (wear shades girl para cool ka na din!). well the 1st ocean's was better for me. thanks sa libre! naunahan mo lang ako!

anyway, i ordered this big sized barbeque popcorn and the flavoring sticks to your hand real badddd. tapos, may makating stuff sa legs ko during the movie so i kept scratching it. well, after the movie was finished, at nakita ko ang pants ko, iba na ang kulay at amoy nya! its almost orange and it smells like bbq. baddd.

in other news... i have this project "closure operation" at para sa mga nakakaalam ng kwento, i'm 0.05% done. good god! well, ganun talaga, salamat sa suporta anyway.

bagong multivitamins

ninakaw ko to sa blog ni conrad.
goodbye enervon, goodbye revicon.

anyway, sobrang nakakastress yung rehersals kagabi (look what its doing to my hair!). late nag start, so late natapos, at hindi ako nakapagdinner. ugh! bad trip ang sama pa din ng acting skills ko, panu na ang autograph signing dreams ko?!

missing nevers

nasa sacred heart novitiate ako kahapon to fetch my brother who was having a retreat. naalala ko lang na dun din ako nag retreat nung 4th year highschool ako. dapat silent retreat yun pero syempre, imposible mangyari yun.

anyway, upang madagdagan ang nostalgia, i met my PROM DATE! hehehe. LOTTE! it was nice seeing you again. sorry di na ako nakababay, di kita nakita eh. :( nag-kwentuhan habang nag-ma-mass at may nasabi sya saken na dalawang bagay na NEVER-EVER nya gagawin sa buhay nya.

ako pala walang ganun, walang never-ever gagawin. or maybe hindi ko pa lang na-lilista pero meron talaga. ugh. i have to think about it...

cap

pinagpalit ko ang aking beloved bonet sa cap ni pong dahil ang letters na **** ay nakalagay dun! hehehe, kilig! anyway, she ignores me now and then, at ang sad lang. :( but then, the cap makes it alllll better! well not really, maganda lang pakinggan ang linyang yun. hehe. sana may digi cam ako para ma-picturan ang CAP! hmm, i wonder, nababasa nya kaya 'to. i hope it remains a mystery. ugh, torture yun.

note to self: ugh, grow up JM, grow up!

y tu mama tambien

bumili ako ng dvd "nun" at pinanuod ko kanina at UGH!! nakita ko ang scene na "YUN" at UGH, DISTURBING! pati kapatid ko, nakita nya! anyway, it was inevitable, for the movie i mean.

Pero.. KADIRI Pa den!! um, sa palagay ko, accurate ang turn of events. i mean, pwede naman patawarin ang pag-****** sa nobya ng pinakatalik mong kaibigan at pagtawanan na lang yun sa makalawa; pero hindi ang... YUCK YUCK YUCK. Ugh.

back to school

since pasukab blues nanaman.. im back to playing bridge and drinking at night! birthday ni chino (aka barry) thursday night at nanglibre sya sa tapika, since kumakanta din ang kanyang boyband dun (17:28 ata). oohh.. i love the wedding people cast.. it was nice drinking with you guys.

kagabi naman (biyernes) ay bday party ni jon, kahit na feb pa ang bday nya... long story! anyway, after 2 and a half bottles of beer, i was drunk again. at nakakahiya sa iba nyang bisita kasi ang ingay ko ata, parang KSP (hindi ba?!). at least madami dami na ako nainum na BEER.. umm, pic at last!








me & my alleged secret admirer, i like this pic kse mukha ata akong cool dito

paskong pasiklab

ugh. ampanget ng paskong pasiklab. may mga nanghihipo pa sa mga haunted house! according to pau and jenie (the alleged victims..) anyway, mas nag-enjoy pa ako mag-hangout sa seattles best after.. at mag drive pauwi gamit ang aking pa-patay-patay na kotse. dapat talaga di na nagchange-oil. ugh. i had a long chat with randyng anay when i got home. right! chat sa internet. aparently, marunong pala mag-chat yun. at meron pala syang blog. pero nakalimutan ko yung add. baboosh

reunions

dalawang reunion sa isang gabi! isa kasama ang mga ka-pamilya. pero sumama lang ako dun sa mga pinsan ko na kasama ko nung new year, so parang walang nagbago. anyway, may cognac dun.. henessey (Tama ba spelling?) at naalala ko si preppy dahil palagi syang nagpapainum nun, ang sarap! :)

after nun, pumunta naman ako sa holy bench reunion, wala masyado tao, but it was ok. ang drinks dun ay something like EL HOMBRE tequila. nag straight ako, sama. nag cards lang kami. damn, may inaasahan pa naman ako na gagawin, pero hindi nangyari. oh well, may next time pa naman yon.

new year revolutions

ang pagbabago ay nagmumula sa rebolusyon (hindi po ako taga UP)

1) wag abutin ng dalawang oras para gumawa ng isang text message
2) wag magsinungaling sa mga minamahal (sa nanay at tatay)
3) wag na lang kaya (too doo doo doot doot)
4) wag sumingit sa mga jeep para hindi mabangga ang side mirror upang hindi ito mahulog sa kalsada
5) wag mag diet
6) bumili ng mga pirated dvds regularly at iwasan ang pagiging kuripot
7) mag meditate bago matulog for at least 5 minutes
8) siguraduhing makuha ang mga pictures sa mga telepono at camera ng ibang tao
9) mag-isip bago magsalita
10) hinaan ang boses ng 10dB
11) subukang sumunod palaga sa mga minamahal (refer to no.2)

gracelands

every new year, we go somewhere to have a family reunion, celelbrate new year, and celebrate my lola's birthday. this year we went to gracelands in quezon taybas.

BADTRIP! we were supposed to go to SHANGRI-LA CEBU, all expenses paid, courtesy of course of my ninong, but apparently, wala silang accomodations. puno ang tatlong buildings nila. wow. actually, puno kahit saan, pati mga hotel dito sa manila, except sa intercon (uck!)

anyway, someone backedout from gracelands (akala ko talaga grasslands, yumyum), so we had somewhere to go. wala ako ginawa dun except mag-sugal with my cuzes. i lost 8 bux. bad trip. i should have lost more. ang theory ko kse sa sugal is that either win big or loose big so that you have something to look back and laugh with your friends or cousins. well, at least pagnagsusgal ka to have fun.

anyway, pagdating ng new year's eve, kumanta kami ng happy birthday, kumain ng crappy food from the overpriced crappy resto, nanuod ng fireworks display from all around quezon (since mataas lugar namin), at uminom. as usual, after a can of beer, i talked straight english, walked not so straight, and headed straight to bed. whats new... new year

HAPPY NEW YEAR. damn, ang haba. may nagbabasa ba ng mahahabang posts? oh well.

transformers

simula ngayong 2005. dito na ako mag blo-blog dahil new year, new blog. well, hindi talaga. anyway, editations will come soon.. kakaayos lang ng aking computher! goodbye livejournal. sana di na magbago isip ko.