28 February 2005

where i should have been, where i was, and where i wanted to be

during the week end, i should have been in a movie with the graduating musmos peeps. i should have gone to the thesis presentationss of my dear ECE classmates to show support, and since one of my teacher requires it. i should have also submitted a recommendation to another teacher for my ojt/practicum. also i should have been on ABS-CBN as part of my field-trips class requirements.

however

i overslept on friday, so i missed the thesis presentations. pau and andrei couldnt make it to the movies so we had to postpone.

i had no money on saturday, so i stayed home till after lunch (since i dont wanna spend money for lunch). so again i missed the thesis presentations. i also missed giving my teacher the recommendation letters and missed the sign-ups for the field trip.

on sunday, since i had missed the fieldtrip, i went to my 4-yr-old cuz JUSTIN's recital, for which he played the 'grand' piano for no more than 2 minutes in total. and we spent almost 2 hours watching the kiddie recitals of twinkle-twinkle, happy bday, and baa baa black sheep, and the like. anyway, after the torture was over, it was time for a reward. why we really went watching the recital, along with the whole family (composed of arount 20 people of all ages) was to have a good blow-out in some god forsaken overpriced restaurant c/o justin's filthy rich parents (who are luckily my ninong and ninang). he spent around AT LEAST 200bux per person in CAFE-ADRIATICO in eastwood, since the cheapest meal is around 180bux, and we had to drink something, which is at least, 40bux. so with around 20people, you do the math.

during that dinner (around 5:30pm) we decided that we'll have merienda at 10pm since were having an early dinner. also, UNCLE MIKE was talking about the aviator movie which he read about that huward hugh he read in some paper during the old times. (malamang, he read really something but konti lang, and made his whole (long) story about the aviator guy up, which he usually does). anyway, since the rich ninong and ninang got curious, we all watched the movie (except for the kiddies and the yayas) again c/o the ninong and ninang. 16people watched (ha, i knew since they asked me to count) and with 130bux a person in the movie house, u do the math.

the movie started at 7:10 and ended up at around 10:20. ang haba. anyway, time for merienda! so we headed to yellow cab. (i like yellow cab again, i didnt like it for sometime). we ordered two verry bigg pizzas and a can of cola each. 500bux a pizza and around 40bux a soda.. with 20peeps, u do the math!. hihi

anyway. yun lang naman. hmm, sounds ah-lot, really. but i would have given it ALL up. all i wanted to be, or rather where, was in...

bulacan. but that was not required, nor was i there, nor was i even invited, hehehe

25 February 2005

champion

for the 2nd year, musmos nanaman ang nag-champion sa women's basketball

ang galing ni jak-pat, kaka-in-love..

hoy, bawal gumawa ng chismis!

23 February 2005

i feel better

pagkatapos mag type ng mga mura ng sang-katerba.. mas magaan na ang aking pakiramdam. kung kaya't gagawin ko na ang aking mahabang post.

anu nga ba yun? ahhh

nung friday, nagkaron ng induction sa musmos at binigyan ako ni myka ng girlie notebook at girlie pencil. salamat ha! hmph. pero salamat talaga. ginagamit ko na yun bilang aking dream journal, katabi ko sya matulog kasama ang flashlight dahil mahirap magsulat ng madilim, hindi sumusunod sa linya ang mga sinusulat. anyway, kung anu-ano na laman nun. meron about spiderwebs, island adventure, about my x. wala pa about HER, kung kelan may journal ako, chaka pa hindi ko sya napapanaginipan. almost all dreams dun, super weird. well kaya nga dreams eh.. pag ganahan ako at magkaroon ng oras (hmnm) ilalagay ko yun sa isa pang blog na wala ding babasa, para asteeeg. mahirap kse i-direcho sa blog cuz pag-on palang ng pc, nalimutan ko na ang dream

speaking of other blogs, gumawa ako ng isa pang semi-private blog se secret address na _________________.blogspot.com .. haaayy.. balak ko nanaman lumipat ng blog, pero chaka na pag may domain na ako at hosting. shit, nagiging nerdy nanaman ako. gusto ko gumawa ng blog na gawa ko.. hmm. gets nyo? ah basta ayoko i-explain yun. anu kaya ok na domain? tiis.net bogusbogart.net

anyway, saturday: bespren jenies birthday libre at gerrys worth 1905.xx tama ba?? GRABE. hindi ako uminom at hindi ako nag yosi.. wala na akong bisyo. pramis.. no drugs, yosi, studies, etc... anyway, wala sa planu ko ang hindi pag-inom pero inspired lang ako nung sat. haha.. anyway si bespren pau dumating from tagay-tay. hinatid ko sya at si bem after CUZ MAY CAR AKO!! wooohooo..

anyway, speaking of birthdays, ill be having my birthday a couple of days from now. shet, gusto ko manlibre, pero di ko alam sa ako kukuha ng 1905.xx pesos. hmm.. wala pa din akong pera.. wala ng nagbago. and i still have to do that german homework. at wala pa din akong YM.

ugh, its almost two, and i broke my at least 7 hours of sleep per day habit. ill be sleeping for 3hours lang today. YM YM YM... i miss u. wahh..

ok.. off to my handwritten blog / dream journal..

fuckity fuck fuck

PUTANGINA, WALA AKONG YM! sa lahat ng programs, yun pa ang wala ako.. palaging nag-e-error.. shet, lahat na nasubukan ko ata eh. PUTA PUTA PUTA PUTA!! hmm, ive never typed so many PUTAss. FUCK, tangina, shit..

UGH! kaburat. shett!!! YM YM YM!! JM JM JM.

balak ko panaman guamawa ng mahabong post ulet na walang bumabasa pero wala na ako sa mood!! punyetang buhay to. feeling ko /reformat na to sa weekend.!!!

wahh.. ang aking server na ilang oras pinaghirapan i-setup. putanginag kawalan ng YM talaga oh.. mas importante ang YM compared sa server!! pooohhtahhhh...

at hindi din ako nakagawa ng putanginang german hw dahil YM ang iniisip ko..

TANGINA!! wahhh

teka nga.. bat ba gusto ko ng YM.. ahh.. onga pala.. pucha pucha pucha.

16 February 2005

next time na lang!

kelan yung next time?! sana naman hindi after the next life!

anyway. gusto ko i-sulat ang nangyari saken the after grace play (thursday) DAHIL BLOG KO TO!

Friday:
i met up with my friend, sara. i haven't seen for months now. sara is my X back in my freshman year. well, not really, that's just what people thought. haha! anyway, we met in up and while i was waitin for her, there was this group of "martial artists" in front of palma hall doing all those tricks which i thought only happens on tv. it was coolness.

well, our plan was to 'dota' so we went to this bench in front of the lib and thats where we played 'dota'. it was a nice game, and we cathced up on a lotta stuff about common friends, made chismis, etc. anyway, after the game, we ate.. and ate... and ate... there was chixbox? fishballs, mcdo, and admu caf food. all these consumed under an hour i thinks. and now, i wonder why we are both soo thin.

after all our money went to the edibles vendors, we hang out on these benches in the middle of de la costa and socsci and laughed at all the people passing by. 'she looks normal' 'that skirt should not go with that top' 'he has too many pimples', etc. yah i know iz bad, but what the hell, its fun, and we couldn't help it. anyway agnes came afterwards and she also did the same. people are nicer these days huh?

anyway, i had a test and sara and agnes have to go home so they went their ways and i went to the classroom, and damn i havent studiede at all!

after the test i went to the fine arts cast party where i played dota again.. it was a 'grand' party! all the kinds of drinks were there except beer! i tried not to drink, and i was quite successful during the first couple of hours. but then, they served the tequila, and all my defenses crumbled! but still, i survived the heavy drinking night without smoking! that was extremely hard especially if everyone around you is smoking. anyway, since i dranked i slept, but it was around 530am already, and we left at 6 it was not that bad. but then, i slept again.

saturday:
was corni. i woke up late since i went home early. i went to area and we hang out at bel field. pong had this banig where everyone sat. well almost everyone, since pong sat somewhere else. he also had this guitar which was not needed. GRABE mag wala si rhey at grace. i-nisa-isa nila yung mga kanta sa 1001 songs. that was it.

sunday:
was even 'cornier'. i went to mass.

monday:
was exciting. well, a day technically starts after 12mn right, and during that time, i was chatting with HER! and SHE was asking me to help her with all these nerdy stuff which BY CHANCE, i just happen to know. AND for the first time, she also asked me something which was out of topic, if you know what i mean. what happens usually is that i ask all the questions and she asks something related. or that she asks these matter of death questions. but last monday, UGH! she asked that out of topic question, as if she was starting a whole new conversation! well, i know it really means nothing but thats whats nice if you are not expecting anything at all. cuz if something like that comes up, it really makes you...

that night, pong and i went to the UP fair. it sucks beans. i did not like the bands, it was just the two of us, and everyone around us were couples. so i just texted HER, and i liked the reply. it was something like that out of topic question, but not quite. ugh, it was something new, i suppose. anyway, SHE was also asking me to help her on tuesday, but it never happened. i dont know... she never texted again. but iz ok. i somehow predicted it.

that night was also the last night i stopped playing dota, for the next day, i gave away all my dota stuff.

tuesday:
'next time na lang pag...'

10 February 2005

patapon

/me is STUPID
/me is TORPE


STRIKE 2 na to.

JAZZ pau pong JM watched grace in tapon tapon! ang galing-galing ni grace.



ikay katabi
binigyan ng pagkakataon
para man lang makausap
at makilala, mapatawa. mapasaya

ngunit wala pa ding masabi
kaba hiya takot ang dama.
hindi naman ako ganito pag
hindi ikaw ang kasama.

pero pag nasa tabi na kita,
akoy nag-iiba.
bumabait, nagiging wirdo
etcetera.

09 February 2005

watch my new movie!

dear friends, please support my new movie! lalo na dun sa mga hindi nanuod ng play ko!



CONSTANTINE

starring
JM Lukban

opens TODAY, 9 Feb 2005

07 February 2005

the wedding!!!

wooohoo, ive beeeen long-ing to post about the wedding play! hmm, pero parang wala akong masulat right now. so, ito muna ang aking gay role pics (with the bigay na bigay pose) plus another pic.. sabi nila, magandang babae daw ako! haha. so girls, mainggit kayo!


ricardo the planner (jm)


ivy the bestfriend (tia), ricardo the planner (jm), and pearl the bride(sabs)


ivy the bestfriend(tia), barry the groom (chino) and pearl the bride (sabs)


anyway, thanks to moses, grace, raph, abby, nix, randy, pau, jenie, pong, tatoff, coni, and jeff. wow, lahat pala ng TIIS people, nanuod.. MARAMING SALAMAT SA INYO.

ugh, ang saya ng feeling na pumalakpak ang mga tao sa aking engrandeng entrance, nawala lahat ng kaba ko. ang sarap ng feeling napapatawa mo ang mga audience. at ang sarap ng feeling ng pinapalakpakan at chi-ni-cheer, at nag-bo-bow. hehehe (with feelings)

after the play, sarap pa din. parang graduation. hmm, di pa pala ako gru-ma-graduate. anyway, the co-actors keep telling you congrats and 'keep in touch' (hm, si chino lang pala yun). tas we were all hugging each other as if di na kami magkikita ulet. woohoo.

hmm, now that i think about it, the whole play thingie left me nothing but good 'stuff'. (1) good memories: mga late rehersals, going out after rehersals, mga chismisan during rehersals. the play itself. (2) good friends: hmm, you know who you guys are and im sooo happy to have "met" all of you. and ill never forget the 'out of play' stuff that i had with u guys (3) good resume stuff. well, im not quite sure about that, but what the hell!! so much for being a 'well rounded' thin person

anyway.. this play thingie will be one of the most remembered expeiriences in my life. i never imagined that i would be able to do as such, and it took alot for me to go through it. lakas ng loob, kapal ng mukha, oras, etc.. never-the-less, it was fun. right... super uber fun. and i am so happy that i went through it all.

o i n k


happy memory no 1.
'goodnight',

happy memory no 2.
'thanks jm'

happy memory no 3.
someone leaked that i stopped smoking because of her
at the end of the long conversation daw: 'aww, ang sweet!'

happy memory no 3.
'jm, jm jm'

haay, dapat pa-onti onti lang ang 'encounters' natin para hindi na-o-overlap ang mga happy memories. yun na lang ang nag st-stay sa aking isip, at yun na lang ang mga aalalahanin ko about you. at mapapangiti na lang ako.

un-less we go out on a date! that would be a goody and happy encounter, lalu na kung hindi kasama ang crush mo. pero kelan nga ba kita ma-da-date kung di naman kita i-na-ask mag-date. at hindi po ako nagpaparinig.

sa ngayon, masaya at nagpapasalamat na lang akong tuwing nakikita ka, at inaalala ang mga H-M na iniwan mo; salamat...
sa mga pag reply, at di mo pag reply;
sa pagpapahiram ng dvd na 'di ko napanuod.
sa pagtanggap ng sumbrero na hindi mo pa ata sinusuot;
sa pagkagat at pagkain ng yellowcab;
sa ride pabalik ng yellowcab.
sa pagtanong ukol sa orange at lemmons;
sa good night,
sa thanks jm,
sa 'ulul mo din',
sa pag-hingi ng tulong sa geekstuff;
sa breakfast
sa ride to school
sa 'next time na lang'

at salamat sa inspiration na binigay.
marahil, wala kang idea kung gaano mo naapektohan, at naimpluwensyan ang buhay ko


anyway, i made this ubercool poem for you. sana naman, mapasaya kita the way na napasaya mo ako, kahit onti lang.

you didnt watch my play
but it is okay
i just hope that someday
you and me will be okay

mmmkay.

u inspired me to stop smoking
tho in a very weird way
and when im all out and falling
i wish u have something to say

--- ang coool no?! *belch*


yep, that's right. as of now, until i dont know whem (sana for a long time, tho 2 months ang goal ko) ayoko na mag-yosi


* ohh lala, most baduyan entry ever*